Chapter 218
A mysterious vigilante group suddenly appeared in the world. They had no codenames and no one knew the names of its members. All countries only knew that they were an organization advocating for peace.
It was precisely to allow every person in the world to live a peaceful life, no longer suffering the baptism of war, that they shuttled between the major warring countries, ready at any time to take the heads of those countries' leaders.
Some countries claimed they were a terrorist organization, the biggest and most vicious in the world, influencing the most countries, and should be completely eliminated.
But every time this happened, those who had suffered the erosion of war would appear and express their gratitude to the mysterious organization.
Such gratitude videos spread wildly online, endlessly, no matter how they were blocked and taken down.
They cried out the suffering of war as well as sang the greatness of peace.
"The criminals in your eyes who kill leaders are our heroes!"
Later, no one knew when it started, but the leader of the hero organization came to be called Princess.
The organization was extremely cautious. For a full three years, only one person, Li Feng, was caught.
Li Feng was put on a live broadcast. As long as he admitted the crimes of their organization in front of the whole world, he could be released.
At that time, Li Feng only said one sentence: “Dedicate glory and peace to the Princess!”
The next moment, the blood that exploded from his heart heralded his death.
This death shocked the world and awakened the grief and indignation in people's hearts.
The live broadcast ended hastily.
That day after watching the live broadcast, Shen Yue didn’t say a word.
But since then, the leader of the Hero organization has been called Princess.
Four years later, the wars subsided and vitality sprouted in the world again.
Shen Yue disbanded all the people who had followed her, only No. 14 stubbornly followed by her side. No matter how she tried, she couldn’t drive him away. Shen Yue had no choice but to start traveling the world with No. 14. She wanted to see all the scenery in the world before making a decision.
Three years later, Shen Yue returned to Flightless Bird, the place where her life truly began.
Flightless Bird at this time was no longer what it used to look like. The dark walls were covered in a lot of weeds without people to manage them, but the electronic door lock still seemed to work.
Shen Yue started to enter the password. After the lock was unlocked, she suddenly said to Su Yunan behind her, "Su Yunan, go away."
"You're saying that again," Su Yunan dismissively said. Over the past few years, Shen Yue would say something like this every now and then. Usually as long as he refused, Shen Yue would settle down for a period of time.
But Shen Yue's determination seemed a little different this time.
"Su Yunan, I know why you would follow me. You once wanted to kill my sister Shen Hui. After sobering up, you were too ashamed and voluntarily agreed to come to this prison.
You thought you volunteered, you thought you were redeeming your sin out of shame, but in fact, my sister only controlled you with drugs.
All your loyalty and shame towards me and self-absolution were fake, illusions produced under the influence of drugs.
You should have realized now that my trust in you was only because you were my sister’s caged bird."
Su Yunan stood in place, not even knowing what kind of expression to put on his face.
But Shen Yue didn't wait for his answer. She raised her foot to step into Flightless Bird from the gate.
In a panic, Su Yunan grabbed Shen Yue's hand. This time was different from before. His hand firmly shackled Shen Yue so she couldn't break free.
"What do you mean?"
Shen Yue said plainly, "You just don't want to leave me now because of the long-term psychological dependence produced by the drugs. As long as you leave me for a while, you will be able to recover normally."
"What if I'm not willing?"
Shen Yue looked back at Su Yunan, still cold. "You are Su Yunan, not No. 14. Have you been a dog for so long that you’ve forgotten how to be human?"
Su Yunan’s hands suddenly tightened and his voice trembled slightly. "Is this...how you see me?"
"Yes. You have to understand that your current feelings are all fake..."
"How could they be fake!" For the first time, Su Yunan interrupted Shen Yue. "Yes, I did follow you at first only to redeem my sin to Shen Hui. But the one who really made me willing to give my life was you. Isn't this fake too?"
"Yes," Shen Yue said decisively. "You're just fooling yourself. Don't follow me anymore."
Su Yunan refused to let go and clung tightly to Shen Yue's wrist, pleading in a low voice, "Don't go."
Shen Yue paused for a moment but soon resumed walking normally. "Don't act cute."
But Su Yunan didn't listen and stubbornly said, "Don't go, okay?" Shen Yue sighed. She thought of her plan and felt a little helpless. "Then how about this - go and find your own true meaning this year. If you still want to follow me next year, then come here and find me."
After hearing this, Su Yunan finally reluctantly agreed and let go.
The moment he let go, Su Yunan always felt that he had lost something very important, but he didn't know what it was. He could only listen to Shen Yue’s words like before, to go and find the elusive meaning.
And Shen Yue walked into Flightless Bird and closed the door without looking back.
She went to where Building 5 was located. It seemed to have been burned here and the original appearance could no longer be seen. Shen Yue didn't go upstairs but sat down in front of Building 5.
"Si Chengyou, I used to tell you that I don't regret it, but now I do."
"I already know what kind of scenery my sister wanted me to see. That kind of scenery may have been gorgeous to her and the past me, but now, I seem to be able to understand your mood a little."
"I still don’t know how you were thinking. If you wanted me to be your successor..." Shen Yue paused before lowering her voice to continue. "How could you have...died so suddenly?"
"Do you know why you couldn't beat my sister? Because she can suicidally transmit her memories back anytime without hesitation for corrections. She’s someone who’s ruthless to others and even more ruthless to herself. You wanted to kill her, not to mention 26 times, even a thousand times would be impossible to succeed."
"But I know what to do."
"The more a person looks at the scenery in front of them, the more I miss the past. I think I was wrong. I should have looked back at you that day. Perhaps you wouldn't have given up on yourself so early either."
Shen Yue knew how to go back to the past, and she knew the secret to going back, just like Si Chengyou said. The amount of things a person's brain can hold is limited. It is impossible for a person to transmit memories to the past infinitely, like what Si Chengyou did.
But this was limited to transmitting all memories.
If it was like Shen Hui, transmitting only a portion of memories each time, it could be used close to infinite times.
How to transmit a portion of memories directionally, Shen Hui had taught Shen Yue. That was to conduct self-hypnosis and have the subconscious restrict the current memories being given to the past self, only transmitting the portion of memories that the past self needed.
Combining Si Chengyou’s words, Shen Yue explored another possibility.
She gently closed her eyes and started giving herself mental suggestions.
With Si Chengyou’s experience as a reference, the age her memories would likely go back to was 10-12 years old. If her past self at that time suddenly accepted all the memories, not only would she not be able to act normally, she might even go crazy directly.
What her past self at that time needed was just the final truth. With that result as the premise, her past self would definitely give up some things that did not belong to her.
When feeling fragile and scared, sleep to avoid doing the wrong thing.
Use Si Chengyou as a reference for how to interact with Shen Yichen, Shen Shuangyi with reference to L.A., Shen Shuangcheng with reference to Li Feng, Shen Jize with reference to Ma Sha’s treatment of herself, and Shen Wu with reference to Tang Yi.
The rest was to wait until her past self was mentally strong enough to endure everything, or when Shen Hui appeared, then unlock all memories and recall all the suggestions she had given herself and all the plans.
Shen Yue took out a gun from her bag, aimed it at her heart, and laughed softly. "Si Chengyou, you win."
Bang.